hey consider this a bad blogpost before i figure that out
i made an ungodly ammount of food and i hadd to eat it all, and now its passing through me like im a ghost.
oh yeah onepiece is a game, i mean oneshot.
i guess ill replay it when i get my pc tower fixed. finally my OG World Machine will re-experience oneshot!!!
then im clearing the bastard and reinstalling windows. pc's probably bloated to hell from a decade of use.
i hate terraria!!!!!!
should i include the time of post? would the time of post be when i started writing? or when i posted it?
blah im lazy, enjoy the day instead!
...im trying to wrangle up more motivation.
im making stuff but not finishing, so i got like a pile of scraps.
i mean its better than a pile of empty paper.
but with blank canvases i dont have to worry about "what the hell was i doing again?"
im thinking of either just deleting all the scraps...
or just merging them together into one beast of a project lol
maybe this work would be better spent on oc project stuff haha, but im too shy to show off my art or writings yet so idk.
WOAH DOUBLEPOST ON SAME DAY?
thinking about it now, is it right for me to limit the ammount of characters in my story
i mean id rather just sell it with a few quality chararcters than everything my heart can think of
not to say im writing it for profit, just id like people to understand the world im writing lol
i dont wanna end up doing lonely writing, where only a select few get it...
nothing wrong with that, actually maybe i should just do that. theres enough generalized stuff out there
p-please.. m-more 240 fps with 4k, third person camera or over the shoulder. and a cover system... some sort of "improvement" on the already great gameplay...
the hell am i writing? this blogpost is crap
added a comment box, maybe now is the time i learn more html lol, i wanna do boxes!!!!!
my friend has a website so im just using the exact same plugin as them lol
oh thats why im feeling like shit, no social interaction
also maybe im just not watching or playing anything interesting, maybe i should continue naruto
DATTEBAYO BELIEVE IT!, IM DA ONE THATS GONNA MAKE SOME AWEESOME ART... after i figure out what rut im in
oh i just realized maybe im like on the edge of being sick so my head feels like crap because of that
... saying that im in a rut sounds like im just horny but no thats not what it is
im locked in!!!
i should try sculpting i wanna make PEOPLE!!!!
..after i sleep because im tired lol
is buying a book on sculpting worth it? i kinda wanna try out z-brush but i dont got the money for that shit lol. i feel like alot of guides are just on the internet though, to optimize blender to be better for sculpting...
wait am i stupid i put the wrong dates for posts 4? or did i just order it wrong,w hatever idc
ok cool i cant click drag to copy text, then again im just retyping the entire h1 blogpost every new blog post so whatever
man what if im so tired i start typing html code in my messages lol, like i end off a sentence with /p by accident..
oh right what was i gonna talk about, uhh. man im never carrying anything heavy again my back still hurts.
ONE MORE DAY AANDD, my mail will finally arrive. if its not here on the 24th... ill idk
its like 3/4ths here, now it needs to be delivered
its here!! :DDDD OMG ITS LIKE NEW lol
installed it, now i have a server pc.. or work pc? idk just finally something thats not my laptop lol
Redacteed the whole blogpost this one sucked soo much
ill just yell louder than the pain, i wanna eat this hotdog but it hurts so much.
i shsoul get a status box like mishas site, i wanna take more asetominaphin or whatever but i ddont wanna risk liver death or whatever the hell. also shoutout to the mexicine for having.. okay labeling? its hard to locate the ammount oyu hsoul take but maybe thats for the best so you are always re-reading to make sure you dont overdose.
had a dream where i climbed a ladder onto an obeservation point, but i was only allowed to look at people i liked romantically from that area, i saw my fursona pass by below and they looked back at me.
oh i had a dream about playing oneshot, sighh where did my save file go lol
coughs still here and im tweaking lol, got an ethernet cable to transfer data to my new pc. gotta mess with those ftp protocals or whatever idk man. i wanna just use a usb and keep copying the data over but im gonna wear the usb to nothing that way lol.
i am NEVER sleeping in again, i dont know what the hell i just experienced. thought it was real so i. pseudo wasted 6 hours? but it was a dream so. functionally idk what it was.
alright, blogposting is cool because now i know when the coughin started lol
last day!, its late for me, yk yk goodnight have a nice dream. april is tomorrow.
hopefully i get more done, i think i had an alright march?? i mean less art done than id like but i started this site back up. this is nice to just ramble into or yell into, you gotta go to my secret corner to even read about my goins on. fixed my pc as i mentioned in blogpost 2, still gotta play oneshot. the audio work but im in a weird situation since i cant use my bluetooth headphones so. gonna have to use my old ass sony headphones to listen to it. unless i wanna blast the oneshot ost on the speakers lol.
one group of friends call me timid i think i just suck at communicating sometimes?, i suck at conveying what i wanna say sometimes i guess. like im supposed to get these cryptic ass social cues, or just read the room but digitally? another one hates me but its more just me being annoying by accident, im still gonna chill with them since i dont wanna be moody about it lol, we got along before and shit happens. although if this shit has been happeing since the start then like, ooh man. but i should keep thoughts like that at the back of my mind, or hell just said out loud to them. i like to say "oh just be more open" but fuck me if i ever do that. closed book man over here, hard to tell whats actually going on? i think?
like i can ramble and talk on and on about my day but ill just keep one stupid thing secret, and keep that shit to the grave
i like my privacy and secrets but it kinda gets lonely or like, you wanna start bragging. then oh cool its not a secret anymore. people keep stuff secret they arent proud of, so having what i like or who i am a secret doesnt work lol. shame wears off faster than pride ig
i type how i talk, dunno if thats good or godawful. guess ill never be professional! i guess i can like it because its distinct and unique but, eh rather be more understandable. im not proof reading this damn blogpost so idk if its way too rambley or hopping to topic. or would make more sense read out loud. more can be said face to face than just text. so i guess this is like me talking directly to you?
uhh, hi there thanks for listening!?
END, SEE YOU NEXT MONTH!
HAVE A NICE DREAM!!!!
oh blah blah april fools lets be a joke post, nah im gonna be serious
cough is still going on so time for another coughdrop ig lol, when i was getting ready for bed i heard this like, distant boat horn? like a fog horn or something, (NOT LIKE A LOUD BLARE, but like a lone call). while getting ready for bed and it made me stop lol. im writing this so im just not eyes wide in bed.
also a black cat crosssed my path, honestly if that bad luck shit is real then sure go ahead man
oh actually that brings me back i used to believe in all that shit, i kept watching those top 10's about "creature" caught on camera and i was like, holy shit thats real!
trust me unicorns are real
NAH APRIL FOOLS I STILL DONT BELIEVE THAT SHIT
aliens are real tho, truth is out there man
oh oh april fools again? ok i cant say thats a lie because there is like space bacteria i think, i guess that counts but we are looking for actual sapient life yeah. actually i might be lying out of my ass maybe i was thinking of the bacteria on the surface of spaceships being alive in the vaccum of space. sighh no aliens not even tiny fellas
god this post sucks, i should be making patchnotes about my art or something but nah. writing this lol
oh one last thing, even if i do go bald in the future atleast ill still have my mental faculties, take my eyes arms and legs heart etc. but dont take my mind, take my mind away and im just any other FREAK...
id like to take a dna test but i dont want that fucking information out there
goddamn it im thinking about death again, im not scared but dont take that as i want to die. i just feel like ive done enough to die without shame or like. regret
heard something about alot of deaths just being filled with regret of like, man i could have been doing this or. i wish i said this or that.
the what-ifs should-haves and if-onlys...
sucks that no one can die without regrets fully, theres alot of shit im embarrassed about and rightfully so
not being able to achieve their dreams, well you gotta settle. you cant do everything...
man wheres my directors cut unabridged life. iddd be the number one artist!!!
ah the hell am i talking about i should be snoozin and cruisin
hallucinated for like 1 second while i was fucking around in my room and i looked like a furry???
this year sucks
noticed new scratches on my phone? maybe its not new scratches?!? idk where its from so im just going wih the assumption i just never noticed the scratches and they were always there lol. mostly because that pisses me off less
yeah its new scratches, also i cant do the "aw to love is to be changed" because now im just pissed of looking at my phone now. its on the screen edges so its pretty noticable, with full brightness or low its fine. but any light coming in just makes the scratch hella noticable.
im trying to entrance myself into thinking it was always there, hell maybe it was? i remember having a scratch that pissed me off before maybe im just renoticing it again lol
also i spent like 30$ and im mad now lol, im not saving up for anything just i dont like spending money.
oh and one more thing, i wanna do like a song of the week. maybe ill do that along with the blogposts? though i keep listening to the same crap so maybe ill finally add a comment section for recommendations and clean this massive page up
bleh time to get around to watching more anime, i wanna be well. watched? and read, more manga... and read don quixote
ANOTHER WACKY BLOGPOST???
actually i have something serious on my mind today.
this place NEEDS a renovation, without sauce this website is just hell. im gonna look into getting a sidebar
i was like, hmm maybe ill do something for 256 fest, oh is it on feb/56th? am i stupid? hahah. i think its probably on the 256th day of the year. then 512 fest is 5/12. or else it would just go into next year lol. hell is theres a 1024 fest? on the 10/24?. im talking about that one 3d modeling thing
256 polys and a 256x256 texture.
hmm, seems like good practice maybe i should try it out it rn
woof, 3 days without a BLOGPOST??? have i finally learned to shut up? nope just thinking alot, enough thinking. MORE ACTION!!!!!
saw someone i never thought id see again and it kinda, greatly confused me.
hopefully we dont, re-meet? im sure after all this time they are a delightful person now but.
YAY more friendgroups!!! what to say? how to act? idk just say a pleasing phrase, be funny!! haha!!
its been alot of stuff and such, its just gonna be a meet and greet then we never talk after that.
not to say i dont like em, no hard feelings. you were still a major douche whenever we tried to talk about anything.
if somehow you see this, hey! hope you're doing better. you were going through alot of shit at the time so i cant hold it against you. actually maybe i can, you can be going through shit and still be a decent person. but not everyone can do that.
actually the hell am i saying, you were a douche before that! im just speaking for you, i should be speaking for myself
its 3 am ill just think on this in bed
aw fuck we could have bonded over the same shit, whatever your personality is too much to handle anyway
cool im back at the what-ifs should-haves and if-onlys, man FUCK you. WHY AM I STILL ON THIS?
id love to say id wake up to a new day and put this behind me, but im up at 3 am thinking about this shit, im not even gonna wake up on a new day lol
im just gonna leave my drawing tablet out, it makes it easier to start ngl
dont ignore that advice of "oh just half do it", its actually useful as hell to yk. start to actually do it?
ive been meaning to clear out a space to draw, or honestly i could do it on my bed like how i used to
..actually why arent i doing that?
i knew that egg was funny! BUT IT DIDNT SMELL FUNNY!!!, not blogpost today or tomorrow oh fuck
i think it would be weird to add a timestamp now but its midnight as i write this
UPDATE, 2 HOURS LATER!! IM GOOD!!!... uh actual blogpost time??
nevermind writing that is too revealing, oh but post 26 isnt?? lmao
ok i keep getting the titles wrong but here i am.
UPDATE: BLEH AND NOTHING WAWS LOST
blahblah blah, goodnight!
OHACTUALLYISAIDIWAS GONNA REPLAY ONESHOT BUT I HAVENT!!! i gotta stop saying shit lol. time to replay oneshot
good to see you again niko..
wwhoooof, i needd another mind reset or something. in and out of phases of. lets play terraria lets play minecraft... terraria phase has me FUCKEDD UP!!!
baalugahugkh, so much to do but i cant!!! i mean i could start my own world andd not wait on them but then i would get impatient or something
goddamn cough is still here but its not activly killing me so im chill